my secret garden

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2007-10-16T15:28:00.000+08:00

2007-08-06T11:04:00.001+08:00

UNEXPECTED

2007-06-29T18:09:00.000+08:00

Life can be full of surprises for us at times...something that you would never ever expect to happen, would just happen. For me i just got the greatest shock of my life....by someone close n related to me....She always seems ok...not "IM HAPPY" but just look OK...Why do i say she doesnt have the "IM HAPPY" look..? Well...if you're an adult n working and have kids but always have no cash in your Own hands...wil you be happy? For me i dont think i would...coz, if im earning my own income i would most likely be wanting to buy things for my kids! At times, when im out with her and the kids..i would be quite 'pissed off' coz, she wouldnt have the cash to shop or binge on food wif the kids...they would each have a certain amount of cash just enough for one meal. That is including the mother too....just one meal for each of them. I will not be pissed off at her, but at the spouse. Now, which spouse would actually do that? Letting your family go out but with limitations, that is go out , have a meal and come back straight....no buying of anything else. What if they ran into an emergency...? And there's no more cash, other than their personal ez-link card.....*sigh*...On one of the occasions that we did went out, the kids got hungry again..and i could only afford to get them fries n 2 hamburgers which had to be shared by 4 kids!....at that time i just wish i could treat them to more treats...maybe kids wouldnt notice these but WE the mothers do! We feel obliged at all times to give our kids the treats...that they want...the toys they're staring at...the freedom to window shop witout being rushed home by mummy just in case they get hungry and there's no cash left to eat...
But at that time i just think of it all as weird....a weird way of caring for your wife and kids like dat....*i dont know, maybe its just me? or does anyone else think it odd*. At times she also have difficulty to meet me for lunch...cos she would be sparing the cash she have in hand for her dinner at work. What i found out yesterday was...She's getting $10 for two days!!...and she's working! ....*sigh*....im a SAHM (stay at home mum) but i get $20 every day and on top of that i got to hold the atm card...i can use it when i need to purchase anything...or go out with my friends if i need/wanted to...
She's been married for 10 years...and all these time, i thought that she's happy with her life so far. Big car, a stable career, lovely children, a maid...her own bike( which i noticed she doesnt use much often now)_
Yesterday, she came and along came her hubby too...they fought and i just leave them alone...never seen them like this before...so, i had to drag my kids out of the house. In the evening, she came back alone and telling me she asked for a divorce....To make the story short, today at 2 am, she made a police report against him, n applied for PPO...(seems dat alot of things happen dat i wasnt aware of ) ...i had to spare her a few clothes...and she moved in with mother....and yes, she's my eldest sister....a sister that hasnt been that close to me ever since marriage....and the reasons? I only found out last night..a whole long list that even mother couldnt bear to hear anymore....
My thoughts are kinda mixed...a lot of questions...but i just never ask her coz i think its all up to her...it is her life...who's at fault i wouldnt want to accuse or say...is it the right move to divorce...it never is but its her choice...My heart bleed for her kids, for her life...but i can just be a bystander for now....
One thing that would make me move is if he ever dare to lay a finger on her in front of me....or ever if i see the evidence on her....BE damned!!

PURCHASES!!!!

2007-06-27T15:31:00.000+08:00

*smiles*happy*grins*guilt*frown*calculate*smile*........hehehehehe...ok, im happy coz i've gotten my purchases from Fredericks of Hollywood!, so i keep on smiling n grins when hubby came back to show them off to him.....then i feel guilty tengokkan dia penat balik keje n i teringat all the things i've been buying ....Ooopppsss....den i frown, wondering if i've been spending beyond the limit..? then i calculate to see n realised i did Spend but the purchases are worth it, SALE PRICE and i've not bought clothes for myself in singapore mahhh~...usually hubby is the one who buy shirts when we're out cos his sizes are everywhere.....not mine though. As for sarah's n hilmi's clothes....baju jalan2 i beli online, baju basahan mana mana pon bleh....hehehehehe...Alasan aku~~~.....hehehehe, ok...will try to cut my expenditure for the coming mth lahhh....rite now im too happy looking at my purchases!!!! hehehehehe.....
FROM FREDERICKS OF HOLLYWOOD!!!!!!!!!! COMFYYYYYYY!!!!! (not suitable to be scrutinized by men..!) hehehehe

these are from OLD NAVY!!! ordered them for sarah to be worn wif jeans or leggings!!! cute rite?!!!

HILMI'S TOOTSIE~!

2007-06-22T18:52:00.000+08:00

ok.....this news is so the basi liao~....coz it actually happened on the 18th of june...a day after father's day. Been busy taking care of hilmi...sarah, who had the 'cough' n i was so kanchong coz i tot it wud end up wif a fever......but in the end it was me who had the flu n migraine~! Managed to take lots of pics in between my resting time but no shot of the precious tooth, coz he's so bent on gnawing or lets call it clamping his gums together n grind them....i guess it makes the itch/pain better....? In the first place hahhhh....how do any of us adults know that it itches...? Maybe its painful like hell....? Or maybe juz an irritating sore...? Who actually knows n can say it out...? The babies? .... ..Anyway...jus to mke him 'feel' better, i gave him his fav chew toy when he's cranky....my/ hubby's finger......it seems that our fingers satisfy him the most! Have to make sure its clean lahhh....at times can jus be our clothes, if we're not carrying him...he wud grab jus anything that catches his fancy~....but of coz, it is still the finger which is his fav...hahahaha.
Oh yeah...we found out about the tooth while having lunch without the sister though cos she sleptover her fren's place....n myself were busy thinking of making it up to my hubby for 'fathers day' wic we cudnt celebrate the day b4 due to alisya's party.....n then hubby was the one who saw it n said " Eh....tu gigi kan????" Imagine me ...the Mama.... "WHAT?! WHERE?!" and yup...i was shoving my fingers down the poor lil baby's throat~! Muahahahahhahaha......but he was delighted at the prospect of my voluntary finger n began his chewing ....N yes! Its there! HILMI'S FIRST TOOTSIE!!!!! Hubby was so happy n delighted.....(not sure if its b'coz he felt his son is growing up...or issit he felt good that he saw it FIRST! HUH~!)
So, we got sarah back and we head off home.....oh, before that , i managed to surprise hubby wif a gift.....hehehe....a box filled wif a coin pouch from OP, a BALMAIN pen, and my most regrettable gift i ever given him.....COUPONS FOR FATHERS DAY...if im not wrong there're 10 pcs inside n each comes wif different benefits...eg: a foot rub!....a breakfast in bed....and many others....all he had to do is jus give me the coupon n I have to do it for him.....*sigh*......WHAT WAS I THINKING?!
so....the rest of the story goes.....we went home, rest for a while n the kids had fun in the water n ball play pool...(hubby bought to celebrate hilmi's 1st tooth) went for dinner at FISH & CO.....n zoinkeddddddddd.........sleeppppppppp lahhhhhh....

ps: his 2nd tootsie was seen yesterday, n its out today! my boy is growing fast~!

To A Party!

2007-06-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

we went to a party today to celebrate alisya's 1st birthday! Sarah was so excited n even though the lil bro was still recovering i decided to go ahead wif the plans since we've promised her..n the lil one seems to be improving today...no vomiting today though the appettite is still much to be desired....but still a bit better...n he got better at the party coz he was trying his best to grab my cup of cold drink! And looking at me eat, he sure looks hungry...but he isnt allowed any food yet until he can keep his milk in...so far so good maybe tomorrow he can have his rice porridge....till then jus milk n glucose for the lil fella~....he got passed around n im sure he's loving it despite the non'existent smile.....unless if he's flinching thats when he doesnt want the person...(so far none has been outcaste by him though, he lurves people!) the sight of kids playing n running seems to excite him (wait till he can walk/run...thats when i'll faint of fatigue!) the sight of party deco flying/swaying from the ceiling excites him juz then ( i've got kicked by him in the stomach many times...its his way of how excited he is!) he barely slept today...( too many peeps, too much excitement...too tired mummy to carry him! i dont think i have to say how happy the sister was...she was hardly seen near me....running the place down with other kids n her fav friend ,Faiz. It was cute to see the sister n her friend together...hehehe....holding hands almost the whole time! Aiyoh.....so romantic! And...she doesnt want to go home today, so had to let her stay wif the auntie n uncle .....ok lahhh....at least me n hubby can rest a bit...

Managed to take only a few shots juz now....here they are...didnt take a pic of the bday gerl though....my cam went down on me!

my boy sakit lahhh...

2007-06-16T14:33:00.000+08:00

on wednesday night, i had to call hubby at work and told him that hilmi was vomiting his feeds 3 times in a row...the first time i juz clean him up n take it as wind...the second time i started to watched him ...any dizzines or whatsoever, coz he had a fall a week back...by the third vomit, hubby told us to get ready coz he's on the way back to fetch us to go to kk.....biasalah kan...hati mothers, i dah start panicking n anxiety seems to build up during the waiting game...hubby sampai terus i drag our things n baby n gerl n off we went to kk...sampai sana, my heart sank cos got so many people!! Long waiting time lah ni jawabnya~....luckily i dah bawak, rattle, musical toy, susu, air suam, cookie monster dia, camera( first emegency trip to kk katakan) n lots of coins (for the sister due to the vast range of vending machines there).
dah kat kk pulak....i worry about him being admitted...yelah..takut sakit apa2 yg teruk ke....anyway, hilmi seems to love the doc, coz she's good wif babies....goo goo gaa gaa over him on the table n wen she needed to check his lil' tummy for gastric or wind, he laughed n coo'ed....dia ingat orang tu nak geli geli kan dia lah tu....n kena puji lagik bila he show the doc that he knows how to shake his rattle at her...n the doc was so entranced by the big 'fake chupa chup' wic is his rattle that she call her colleague over to see see the rattle...hehehe...
so, for the first visit, the doc wanted us to stay a few hours more for observation but hubby nak kena run back to work...so we told her we will come back if he starts vomiting again...

now, last nite wic is friday, hilmi started vomiting again...n its always on me...mind u...the daddy never gets the vomit.....so off we went to kk again....n along the way in the taxi, i kena lagik vomit dia....takper lah sayang...anak mama kan...nak muntah ..muntah lah kat mama....rela u~....but this time i was extremely worried cos his appetite wasnt good the whole day n everything came out! he doesnt want to play much even......jus sleep n smile a bit n cry wen he's cranky....this time its a diff doc, n he sent hilmi for x-ray....n the ending result? the doc suspect 'bronchitist' i dunno if its the rite spelling ...hehe...said sumthing about viral infection in the lungs....n the coughing is causing him to vomit b'cos of the pressure on the diaphragm....dun ask me if its the rite spelling.....
given the choice to admit or not but i chose not to cos ...what they will do is jus treat his coughing so he will stop vomiting....i wud rather he at home n both me n hubby sama sama jaga n treat him rather than one nurse to 5 heads....nanti saper nak cuddle dia, nak pimpin tangan dia......i wud rather we ourselves do it wif doc's medication .....pls doa doa kan dia cepat sembuh k.....kesian my boy, baru 8 mths dah kena go kk 2 tomes in a week.....
rite now, he's moody n cranky due to the blocked nose.....bad throat, hungry but not able to keep the feeds in,....*sigh*....

Byul translations....very touching lyrics

2007-06-11T13:08:00.000+08:00

-the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
-the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
-the stars reassure tired me
-they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
-don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
-and comfort me,
-telling me to go to sleep
-though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
-though my tears blur my vision
-I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
-Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
-like those countless number of stars, forever
-My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
-it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
-stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
-and gives me a warm hug
-though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
-I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
-Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
-like those countless number of stars, forever
-Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
-I want to laugh like those stars-Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
-Like those countless number of stars, forever

200 POUNDS BEAUTY

2007-06-11T12:58:00.001+08:00

I've watched the movie with my family n im so in love! The movie is great n funny n touching....so the true about how people are actually treated acording to ur looks or dressing as ive heard of n gone tru myself...*sob*sob...Not dat i really care of those idiotics who go by looks to serve or treat u well....but it does hurt us in one way or another doesnt it? *sigh*....anyway, i fell in lurve with one certain song sang by Kim Ah-Joong the heroine in the movie which is Byul ( I Think I Love You) very heart-wrenching song!! OMIGOD! hehehe....but u have to listen to it urself to decide...

Romanized Lyrics & Translation:

*param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
*nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
*areumduphge byulbijdeureul
*kadeul chaewojuneyo
*malhi aphahajimah
*nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
*jakjara weouro haejuneyo
*keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
*nunmuli apeul karyeowado
*kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
*jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
*kashime kanjig halkeyo
*du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
*cheoreom yeongwonhi

my weekend

2007-06-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

my weekend last week was great n not great....hmmmm, i donnoe how to rate it coz i felt happy n also upset lahhh....
happy coz we celebrated our wedding anniversary....jeng jeng jeng....shopping, coffee(our fav past time), meals without the kids( lomentic a bit kan), hold hands all day long( not 24 hrs ahh..) and of coz some spice added on later at home...muekekekekeke....(evil grin)
upset coz baby hilmi's cold n sniffles turn to fever which comes n goes....n he was very very cranky...And then to make it worst, while lying on the bed venting his frustration b'coz of the block nose, he fell off my bed!!!! I was rushing to the kitchen making his milk to pacify him, the daddy was in the toilet (urgent), the sister was there with him but eyes glued to the tv (Charlottes Web vcd lahhh..) ...haiz....n No i didnt blame my girl coz its my duty to make sure he's safe at all times not her, a 5 year ol'....Damn! i felt n still do feel guilty about it. Dah lah sakit n then he fell of the bed~! Luckily nothing bad happened, i observed him the whole day until the next....good appetite, still playing wif his cookie monster, still laughing n smiling...no drowsiness or vomiting....Alhamdulillah...

anyways, we celebrated our wedding anniversary very simply....jus spending time alone, dating macam dulu dulu....hehehe...
so, we went to vivocity n window shop there, had coffee at starbucks, had a delicious n filling meal at Thai Express, 'ta pau' my fav chilli fries from Carl's Jr....then we went back to amk to catch a movie since the movies at vivo was so packed!! but it was ok lah coz we managed to go home n rest n buy the tics then had coffee n tea at mac'Cafe...n we watched the Pirates of the Caribbean!!! Best n entertaining~!

hope u all had a great weekend too....i noe this comes a tad too late since its oready tuesday, hehehe....i was busy taking care of my baby lahh....ciaoz~!

Hot Day At THE Pool!

2007-06-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

I've been cam-hogging the whole week, coz i actually juz found my long lost digi-cam which i've misplaced before...hehe.So, there are many pics actually wif every outing that we went to since hubby took the week off...reason being , me n baby hilmi were both down with the fever n colds n also jus to rest n enjoy our wedding anniversary which was on the 31st May. Luckily the fever didnt stay long enuf to spoil our week, jus a snuffle here n there from hilmi...'kesian dia'. But the weather did kinda heat up the week, it was unbearably hot up till yesterday, when it started drizzling...'heaven'!
So, what we did to overcome the weather prob was to go for a swim! It sure was fun! And baby hilmi was enjoying it all! He couldnt get his eyes off the pool the moment he set his eyes on them...hahaha. I couldnt get him to stop kicking his feet, he juz lay down naturally in the water n start kicking n wading! All i had to do was to hold his head up coz he was also swallowing the water!!! Yipes~! Anyway, at the end of the day he had gotten himself a bloated stomach, filled with water but a satisfying smile. And the sister had enjoyed herself too since she got herself 2 water guns which she used to play with her daddy...and i'm pretty sure the daddy enjoyed himself too after bullying the daughter by shooting her with loads of water~! Tsk...tsk....

BABY RYAN RIZQI

2007-05-29T16:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday evening we ( the four best friends) had a get together at rini's house to celebrate ryan rizqi's arrival. Juz us n our partners n my sarah of coz...a small private party juz between us close frenz. Baby Ryan look so small....(reminds me of hilmi wen he was juz like that) so the easy to carry, wif juz one hand! How i miss that weight...hahaha.Now, this lil one is cute ok~, he seems to like sleeping wen there're people around him, macam feel comforted gitulah ada security surrounding him~! hahaha....ni dah besar mesti jadi VIP ni.....ada security 24/7! hehehehe...

I got baby ryan an Elmo teething soft toy, something that baby hilmi has too....nak same2 jerr...but his is Cookie monster..cam dia jugak, nak mamam jerr. N the three of us gals share the cost for a box of cupcakes that i ordered online from kakak diella http://amsweetindulgences.multiply.com/ which were so gorgeous n cute! I n ifa cudnt take our eyes off the cakeys when we saw them....hehehe, nak mamam pon macam sayang gitu~....hubby pon suka the cakes n agreed to getting them for sarah's b'day later...best!

thanks for kak diella for taking my late orders~! ur cakes are precious!upclose shot of the cuppies!the proud new mummy wif cakes n bb sleeping at the cornerus best frens wif cuppies n hilmi

the cakes!

Vivocity Wif Auntie Nor!

2007-05-27T14:06:00.000+08:00

Friday's Outing Wif Ayah! part 2

2007-05-27T14:02:00.000+08:00

Friday's Outing Wif Ayah! part 1

2007-05-27T13:57:00.000+08:00

My VS n Makan Time!

2007-05-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday got a nice email n sms!! wahahahaha....my Victoria secrets 1st orders have arrived~!!! yehhh....juz waiting for the registered post to my house....wow! bestnyaaaaaa.....hehehe....in time for the anniversary celebration~....*wink*wink*....cant wait! cant wait!....yippeee~!!!

oooohhhh....i think im getting addicted to online shopping~! tsk tsk~ made my 5th/6th purchased liao~....hubby gonna hentam me wen he sees the account soon....hehehehe.....shhhhhhhhh!

Today even though the weather is terribly hot.....i got the urge to cook up a storm in the kitchen. Sweated like crazy sehh....dah lah cuaca panas, kat bawah ada coffeeshop makes it worst! But the ending result is satisfying~....managed to masak Ikan Kerapu Masam Manis, Chap Chye and Fried Wonton!! the last is my fav and it sure is time consuming to make it.....but worth it!! Dapat buat untuk dua hari nya makan!! besok, cuma wrap n fry jerrr! Hubby tadi tak tau malu sikit.....ngaku kat anak yang dia masak semua.....ish....padahal dia syiok main PS2 tadi.....hehehehe......(takper lah asal semua hepi bila makan sama2)

whats cooking?!

2007-05-23T15:06:00.000+08:00

hello semua...

these past few days i think i got back my azam n ilham to cook for my family...hehehe...best kan? i used to cook all sorts of food b4 my second pregnancy....but stopped due to my temp inability to smell cooked food in the house when i was carrying hilmi....sampai bau from the coffeshop downstairs pun i cant take it sehh....then after that i was still juggling to handle sarah n baby hilmi by myself so the cooking still had to be on hold n my family juz had to eat out most of the time.....so the Expensive to eat out sehh....but what to do...i was still trying to grasp my schedule ...

anyways, its all under my control now....(i hope lah)..so, we managed to bake our own pizza, baked some cookies, cook spaghetti, make mango sorbet(like ice cream) and last nite able to cook panfried chic wif baby potatoes n garden vege wif white sauce....(pics available!) yum yum...

whats nest? well....lets just wait n see k...

ps: today tried cooking japanese curry...ok lah...diff from our curry but sarah likes it coz its not spicy, a tad sweet for me though.( lupa amik gambar ah)this is my first try at 'mango sorbet'! gd review from hb! yehhh..

pan fried chicken, baby potatoes, garden vege in white sauce( garlic n herbs)

hot!!!!

2007-05-22T02:16:00.000+08:00

hilmi on his jumperoo!!

im finding trouble sleeping tonight n last night due to the heat....the weather is disastrous right? And my aircond is still not repaired yet....*haiz*....my poor babies are sleeping in the living room coz the bedrooms are like saunas right now, even as im typing here im sweating like a pig! Sheesh....Anyways, last friday i sent my babies to my best frenz ma' right? Well, they were only returned on sunday afternoon....hehehe....the small one was too cute i guess. But the daddy n i were missing them like crazy. It felt weird going out without them by our side...so, we were kinda silent n decided to postpone our date with 'Spiderman 3'. He doesnt admit it at first that he was missing them right up till 10++pm...n he have to go to work the next day, 24hours...so that means he will have to miss them for another day more...unlike me, who managed to get them back on sunday at 2+pm and proceed to kish my lil' one nonstop, suddenly he felt light in my arms....(usually i cant tahan 2 carry him,SEMANGAT!) dah rindu kan....haha.

The next separation would be on our anniversary...in 2 weeks time...hmmmmm...looking forward to the anniversary but not the separation part with my babies again.....

SEPARATION ANXIETY

2007-05-19T02:26:00.000+08:00

urghhhhh.....after 7 months im separated from my baby for the night~! Not separated by force lah....juz that i finally got sumone to babysit him for the night while hubby n i got some time for ourselves...*sigh*....sayang sayang anak jangan lupa sayang bapak'nya kan..? Never did i imagine i would feel this way, hehehe....nak passing my baby tadi sikit punya susah~! Like dont wanna let go lehhh......macam nak cancel jerr plans.....tapi kesian pulak hubby kan..so hopeful to have a couple nite out. Pass the kids to one of my best frends mum juz now at 8++pm, then off we went to buy movie tics. Tapi in my head ada macam2 'what ifs'...."what if he miss me?","what if he cudnt stop crying?""what if they wudnt know how to layan him?".....a mothers agony is when u have a lot of 'what ifs' playing in ur head....hahaha. But im feeling better now, thankfully, coz its 2++am and there's no news or calls from them......everything shud be fine then......??hmmmmmmmm.....
ni tadi kat mac juz before nak pass him n d sister to my best frens mum...hilmi aka 'shrek'!

Anyway, we watched 'JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG'.....what our reviews are? well......'JANGAN TENGOK

INI'....muahahahaha.....seriously though, if u are watching a ghost movie n u are able to see the stunt rope used by the ghost, r u supposed to laugh or scream in horror? N then another thing is, this movie was given a good review n hooo haaaa , so ur expecting some good n original movie but somewhere somehow, suddenly there's a scene where they show 'the tv in the black n white distorted view'(think 'THE RING'), n then a ghost is crawling on the floor towards u......(remember SADAKO?) hmmmmm....what am i supposed to say for goodness sake?! its a good movie? aiyohhh.....hubby kat sebelah nak ketawa jerr..(i jus had to recommend watching this..REGRET!) n making things worst is the bad heroine! Dont ask me to say who issit....coz we dont keep in touch wif malay stars so far, n this one doesnt give me a good impression anyways...BAD ACTING! like reading right from the script sehhh....i would expect a more tearful, sad expression from someone who juz lost her identical twin what! hmmmmm......never mind, next time no more malay movies, only vcds....buang duit laki aku jerrr tadi.

The only good review from that movie? Nice audio at certain parts to takutkan orang, nice make up for the ghost. Itu jerr.....kesian kan? haha...

Never mind....in a few hours we will be watching our next movie, SPIDERMAN 3! Yehhhhhh....!

at mc'cafe after the movie...nice butterfly done by the staff on my cappachino, n yummy looking iced coffee n apple crumble!

DOUBLE CHOC CHUNK!

2007-05-16T01:14:00.000+08:00

Been thinking of baking cookies selalu tak jadi...so, tonight juz now, i juz baked some Double Choc Chunks instantnya...biasalah..tapi sedap sehh...we bought the Betty Crocker nya instant mix n its so full of d choc chunks! Choc heaven~...easy to make but pasal i ni skitnya tak pandai baking procedure, pi hanguskan the first batch of cookies...*sob*sob*...nasib baik ada banyak lagi...

Satu umah bau power~...the smell of freshly baked cookies is so the powerfull! Takleh tahan babe! Even sarah kept coming into the kitchen nak menyibok...(adalah dia try tolong2 skit) tapi ada makna tu~....heheh. Then this gerl ahh...very clever tau, she kasi ayah dia yg hangus nya dulu...ish...majok jugak kang orang tu....den she ask me for the next batch of cookies wic turn out well....hahaha...sedap!! Must try!

MUM'S DAY OUT!

2007-05-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

This year i had a nice time celebrating my mothers day...hehe.Coz we sort of celebrated it in 2 days....On sat 12th, we went to suntec n the kids had a toy each, sarah got her first Barbie doll n hilmi got his Cookie Monster teething soft toy! (i feel happy wen my kids r happy so dis is like a celebration 4 me*grins*) We walked n walked n shopped n shopped...hehe....had burger king for lunch, den we had Carl's Jr for dinner (ok..dun ask halal/not eh..) im juz in lurve wif the chilli fries`! Hubby lahling~ bought me a nice baju at Dorothy Perkins my fav lable~...so sweet! Thank you a'yang! Den we forked out a bit to buy hilmi a new stroller, a lighter one coz im having trouble taking him out with the current one due to his weight...(semangat!) oklah...kesian tengok a'yang ku~...dah spend banyak!! so, we went home wif me feeling happy of coz!!

ni..nak siapkan lil boss sebelum kluar..beshnya mandi bubblez!
kakak sarah happy ada kawan nak play with at last...(see d not much diff in sizes! 7 mths n a 6 yrs old! ni konon nak jadi police...hehe
And on the actual mothers day on sunday 13th, we went to amk hub...nearby ajerr..had lunch at the foodcourt, den shopped shopped...den hubby nak surprisekan me wif a prezzy but sarah tak bleh tutup mulut....hehehe...got a nice prezzy wif a card...sweet kan?! Hubby so geram wif sarah coz pecah rahsia, adoi~...den he cool down biler nampak Andersen's Ice cream, so dia blanja lah kat sana...n feels better! Camner tak feel better~...makan fondue! Oooooohhhh.....syiok! Even let lil hilmi try some ice cream but i think he prefers the strawberry as it is...

ni berani tunjuk gambar b4 makan ajerr...after nya tak senonoh...muka comot ngan chocs! hahah...lagi lagi hilmi wif his excess strawberry on the face n baju....
HAD A NICE TIME ON MOTHERS DAY THIS YEAR , THANKX TO MY HUBBY YG TERSAYANG N THE EXISTENCE OF MY 2 LIL ANGELS!

Pizza Day!

2007-05-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

PIZZA DAY
today we had a bit of fun in d kitchen...had a 'bake ur own pizza day', hubby took leave today so i didnt want to waste it by doing nothing at home. We juz bought those premade pizza crust, moza cheese, beef pepperoni n tomato paste...n WAhLaaa~...Pepperoni pizza is served! Sarah had fun of coz since i've never let her do any cooking before...hehe. And the pizza tasted great...yum yum...Baby hilmi only got to watched us have all the fun...(wait till u older a bit k) but of coz he got his own food too....that is carrot n potatoes homemade by his mama...(better than those bottled ones lehhh...Tomorrow? Well, im planning a 'bake our own cookies' if the daddy let us that is...heheh.

waiting for the pizzas to be baked~!
the Pepperoni Pizza!sarah's creation!

only carrot?

hot weather n rins bb

2007-05-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

air cond still not fixed lehhh....crap rite, the panasonic peeps say not their aircond faulty so dont have to do anything...aiyoh~...poor sarah n hilmi, n to make matters worst ..the weath er is so d*** hot. even my aircond gone slow liao~...its not even a year yet lehh...wah lau~...i got such a nice migraine last nite, so hard to sleep n hil mi kept on waking up n crying due to the lame air cond. Called 'mahkamah' translate to english ehh...n they promised to call back n waited till we also forgot all about it...they never call back..shucks!
anyway, good news for today...hehehe, rini gave birth liao~...so secretive that she got her self admitted without telling any of us....ish ish...budak ni dari dulu sampai skang tak tukar tukar.....tapi ...CONGRATULATIONS!
at last my bb hilmi can say 'ive got a buddy!'...hehehe....n sorry yeah no pics of the lil one, coz i think its the mama's rite to do it first lah...show the first ever pic of the lil one in her bloggie...unless she give me the access lahh....(cehh..macam bb suri ala brad pitt n jolie sehh)
so, welcum lil ryan....n have a nice time being a new mama rin~...

Gd morning...

2007-05-05T08:24:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7+ dis morning..*yawnz*...ngantuk sehh. Aircond man punya pasal lah ni...sarahNhilmi's room panas, kesian,aircond rosak so by hook or by crook i still have to make sure the aircond is repaired. Funny how we pamper our kids these days huh? Last time when we were kids, we dont have the luxury to have airconds at home. All i remembered was the whirring of the fans, sometimes none at all. Juz the 'kelambu' wic is the anti mosquito net...hahaha juz in case some of u donnoe lah, and the mosquito coil helping us to sleep peaefully. Nowadays, even the coils are a taboo~...not good for kids~....aiyoh, i wasnt a kid then when i inhaled it last time? hehehe....actually ah, i myself also became such a paranoid mummy. Maybe as technologies are getting better, we are also wanting better things or life for the kids...See, i've actually installed the airconds for my kids! Mosquito coil? Well, not when they're asleep in the same room as where the coil is...haha...Did i also mention that i only got a bar of soap for bathing? No shampoo lehh. The first time i used shampoo was when my sis n i actually managed to pool our cents together n bought our first shampoo from the mamak shop, n the shampoo was in powder form! Now, my girl gets to have her own shampoo, my baby have his own johnson's shampoo n liquid soap...The life kids are having now are getting scarier for me as a parent. Imagine, me n hb oready have to think of ways to say NO to sarah if the time comes when she ask for a handphone....Yep! we will say no coz we dont find a good reason for kids to be holding on to a hp. As long as there are public phones around, she would have to adapt..until secondary school when she would have to used her own pocket money if she so need it so much...*haiz*...such an early planning?thats all i can do for now, juz plan n hope things will go smoothly.....i really shudder at the thought of being a parent to a teenage....yipes`!

anyway, back to now....Where the heck is the aircond man..?! im bored, hb went to work liao....kids are sleeping so soundly in the airconded room..my room....hmmmm, im thinking of grabbing that Ben n Jerry's tub in the freezer.....yum yum...Chubby Hubby...my one indulgence....hmmmmm...should I? So early? ok, be rite back....haha.

(pause)

okies....back wif my Chubby Hubby! power sehh....'Fudge Covered Peanut Butter Filled Pretzels in Vanilla Malt Ice Cream with Fudge &

Peanut Buttter'...tempting~? haha...Well, i guess i deserve this for now...did spring cleaning last night...n managed to chuck off 3-4 rubbish bags of thrash. Things have a way of accumulating space in ur home...laundries seems to pile up in a split second...toilets seems to irritate me by not having the sanitizer smell....clothes doesnt seem to fold by themselves....hmmmm, ok let me make this easy to understand. People seems to take it for granted that as long as there is a StayAtHomeMum, the house will be spick n span without lending a hand. The food n clothes will be ready without a helping hand....get it? So....i deserve this Chubby Hubby n im getting more after reading this blog entry myself....coz i really Do deserve it...hah!

oh....i got a nice pic taken....i will upload it ...hehe. they dont even realised i took a pic when this was taken...sweet rite...?

sarah nur maya

2007-05-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

this kakak takmo kalah...nampak gambar adik kat mamanya blog, dia pon nak sekaki...posing maut...haha.

hilmi at 27 wks

2007-05-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

juz pics

2007-05-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

haha...juz a few pics of me n hubby that i managed to upload at last...*sigh*...ngah feeling emotional pulak aku ni...tsk tsk...nasib baik ngah 'off'', 'aunty' come visit lahh...kalau tak aku kenyam laki aku tu...ngah rasa love,love....alahai....

hormones zoink~

2007-05-03T15:40:00.000+08:00

i need to get my hormones check~...blew my top today at poor lil sarah*haiz*...kesian dia....patut ke i blew my top juz coz she cudnt see her uniform was on the sofa? Even threaten not to send her to school today....aiyoh..crap lah today! so dang! hard to sleep at nite...takut bocor~...den woke up today feel happy one minute den moody, den happy again...suddenly nak siapkan sarah terus blew my top....sheesh!
Baca newpaper pun like 'siao cha bo'...feel so emo over the accidents , the fire...etc;...crap...hb say its normal lah coz my 'p' long time never come mah~.. 'si beh sian'...

note: need to giv sarah a hug n kish later...

Alas...

2007-05-02T15:29:00.000+08:00

my 'aunty' came again at last...*haiz*...not sumthing wic women would normally celebrate...but for me it is kinda worrying coz mine comes once in 2-3 mths...n after birth n the confinement period, it never came again...till now, so that makes it 5 mths ago? *sheesh*....n its really bad...i had slight fever for the past few days n bad flu, top up wif a nice dose of migraine...hah! hows that for life as woman? *haiz*
the sh***y thing about this 'aunty' is also the hormones...it goes imbalance...ive been behaving/feeling weird since yesterday. happy 1 second n moody the next second...relaxed one moment n sad the next moment...terrible things to endure..especially wif a baby to care for...
sumthing else juz came to my attention...hmmmmm, if yesterday was the 1st day, then the next one cud be 1st june?! oh no....!!!!!!!!! how to celebrate my anni like that......so frustating~....aiyoh! behtahan man~!
dang!...this 'aunty' thingy is getting to my already imbalance nerves...better take a rest for now...bye.

SAHM activities

2007-04-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

i was reading my fren bloggies today n realised ive not been updating to this blog..haha. Been caught up in internet shopping....tsk tsk tsk~...n gossiping/telling stories/experiences on http://www.singaporemotherhood.com.sg/ *sigh* my hb gonna go bankrupt liao wif me ordering this n that from victoria secrets n fredericks~! hick! sssshhhhh....anyways, i find it helpful n entertaining too at times reading other mummies experiences/troubles/stories on this webby.It makes me realised that almost everyone's life is the same, juz that we're in diff bodies n faces....(do u get it?) hmmmmm, nvm. Some of the things that ive read became conversation topics between me n hb, about marriage/babies/kids/etc; kinda good lah coz sumtimes i juz run out of things to say even though i am a chatterbox, (but keep on repeating certain things coz no story liao). Well, wat to expect from a SAHM rite? hahaha...oh yeah, wanna see wat i ordered?...kekekeke

minah jiwangz

2007-04-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

i was listening to some ol' music jus now when i realised dat these were songs that i used to listen to when i was 'estranged' from my mum,family n frenz..i was a minah~! my gawd~! u noe those jiwangz songs...by spoon..spring...etc;..? haha..i mean, before dat i dont really wanna listen to these songs much..but during that certain period of time i was a total minah! tight black boot cut pants, tight black shirt, navel chain around the waist,brown lips, black eyeshadows, eyeliner, cold/action kerek expression.., weepy eyes at the sound of jiwangz songs, able to 'feel' the jiwangness of it all....hehehe...hmmmm...maybe it was an emotional period for me at that time..?trouble at home wif mummy n bro causes me to be estranged from them n reside in my sis's 5 rm flat in jurong...empty home,no furnitures cos my sis wasnt living there,yep..i was alone in an empty 5 rm flat when i was 18 yrs ol'...hmmmm...sad but true..

aniwaes...things happens rite? so, there i was, an 18 yr ol gal hanging on for dear life on her then boyfren...'nice','loving','responsible','matured'...bf...*sigh*...why do women/girls go all gooey n emotional when they're in love? a question that women themselves find it hard to give a firm answer for...haha...i was an emotional wreck...listening to these jiwangs songs 24/7 and getting weepy...*bleagh~!*...den things took for the worse when we broke up and i was stamped 'minah jiwang rabakz'....hehehe...you see, i was working at A&W clementi as a sup and during that 'emotional' period due to the breaky, i was assigned to the counter job...hmmmmmm, bad idea...counter facing the jukebox full of jiwangz + me + 2 other brokenhearted girls= 'weepy townsville'...

so, my life then and there was full of jiwangzness....*sheesh*...the songs rindu serindu rindunya...gurauan berkasih...blah blah blah filled up my life! yipes~! hubby wouldnt fall for me then...hahaha. oh yeah, we found out during that time when i was working there ...he was also there quite frequently....but we didnt remember meeting.....hmmmmmm? i guess our taste were diff then....haha...

heres a sample of songs i listened to...enjoy~
link here>>http://profile.imeem.com/5hWQQF/playlist/jmPJZHra/

boring lahhh

2007-04-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday n today is so boring lehhh...nuthing much to do at home or anywhere coz it rain whenever i thought of going out...bah humbug! hmmmmm....today i went online and ordered sum stuffs for baby hilmi...hehehehe....a bumbo seat, a twirlin n whirlin' turtle, a i donnoe wat its called...thingy...hehe...anyway we rented it and all 3 items cost us $34 only. ok ah, cheap rite? for a month...or maybe i might rent it for 2 mths...hmmm? well anyway, the service was dang' good...coz i actually rent it on the webby at 1 pm today n she responded by calling me up at 2 plus and have it sent by 3.45...haha...hows that for good service!!!
hilmi went goo goo gaa gaa at the sight! put him in the bumbo n his eyes went directly to the toys before him and he was in awe for 15 minutes or so...then scream for attention...duh~...like mother like son....*grins*. the sister was kinda jealous? hmmm...she was asking why 'ayah' bought all these?!! why?? why?? and i had to sort of 'hey' we borrowed this so u can play wif the baby..!*grins*grins*...ok...she took it. done!
now...what can i do next? hubby have been stuck on ps2 since yesterday n me find a bit of companionship at the pc....hmmm...bad bad...oh~! next on agenda...waiting for rini's baby~!!! yeah....rini...if i got u rite now....i would make u do the hip exercise thing to make the baby come out faster ~! haha...or maybe jump a little?heheh...

time flash

2007-04-15T02:00:00.000+08:00
when i was still in school, i remembered wanting to grow up faster n be able to have my own home n live with my friends ...haha...sumthing like the tv show 'FRIENDS' lah...i thought that its better to be older n on your own....cehh~! anyway, now that im 26 turning 27 by the end of the year....whoooa~!i juz cudnt ****ing believe it! its dat fast?! counting down to the big 30?? NO WAY! dang`...i feel ol'!...just 'yesterday'~...i was skipping school to sent off some boybands at the airport....n now im worrying about my princess following after me...hahah! sheesh~

what im counting down right now is actually 31st may...hehe, the day hubby n i solemnised our union....ahhhhh....not a nice party that one but the meaning of the solemnisation is deep in my heart ...6 years of marriage...hmmm...felt short but could see the results of it...2 kids in tow..our own home...a stable career for hubby...savings...at last...hubby not caring if i stumble...normal..rite gerls?!...always the last one to be ready for an outing after preparing the kids while hubby prepare himself the whole lotta time~...duhh.......hubby looking at me n wondering where's the girl that he married~~~....behind the 2 kids she have to care for, on top of the load of laundry, holding a broom n pan sweeping after u..., hands deep in pots n pans for u n kids, on the bed waiting for u while u converse with the ps2..., deep in slumberland when ur free from ur 'responsibilities'....ahhhh 6 years of marriage......'bliss~..'

amk

2007-04-09T01:27:00.000+08:00
AMK seems to be getting a tad too crowded for me n family at the moment. I think its due to the new amk hub...hubby hates it if i asks him to go window shopping over there now..haha. In fact he hates wherever there's a crowd....so, at the moment i guess we will juz be stuck at home as long as nobody ask us out......

nothing else to ramble about for now coz i've been feeling kinda bored...till next time when im chirpy again!

updating....

2007-04-05T23:18:00.000+08:00
so...its been sum time since ive blogged......SIMS.....yups....im stuck on SIMS.....the game ....that game ....hahaha....ive always been the one to nagged at my hubby for spending too much time on that ps2 of his......but now im stuck!! Arghhhhhh......its even on my mind when i sleep~! Seriously~! Coz when my baby is crying in the middle of the nite ....i actually was having these thoughts..."SLEEP...FOOD...TOILET...ENTERTAINMENT...FRIENDS...press X...". hahahaha....its driving me crazy~!! yipes! but im enjoying myself while hubby must be regretting for introducing me to it....heheheh. Now....its OUR ps2.

PEPPER LUNCH.....have any of u try it yet?? Slurp....i just found out about it...ever since they opened a branch here at amk hub, we tried n i lurve it....maybe its the idea of cooking ur own food n having them heated up all the way, or maybe its the food itself ...but i still lurve it...for those who dont mind 'HALA_' food which means "no pork no lard"....try it!!! delicious....http://www.pepperlunch.com.sg/ <

olay~! fever~! games~!

2007-03-30T17:25:00.000+08:00
nothing much happens this couple of days...a tad boring in the every day life but not when hubby is around lah...haha. we're all stuck at home for now coz we're currently addicted to the smiley central arcade games which i've been downloading for free ....its fun! gerls shud try the wedding planner game...its actually hunting game but u would also be doing the planning for the wedding....aiyah~....they're giving away free trials so, have some fun there. hubby wasnt really keen on it until he helped me hunt for the items, n then he was hooked....hehehehe.

anyways...sarah is down with fever at the moment ...not too high though but still needed to be separated from the baby brother....so, no going out...no ice cream no chocs no a lot of things which she would try her best to get n would even self declare that she's fit n well~....duh! im really trying my best to be a damn patient mum despite the ' medicine war' , the 'pitiful look n i need water now!'...., the 'i'm sick but i wanna play game'.....hahaha.....but kids~ will be alwys be kids....i just need yoga!.......omph~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`

oh yeah~...have any of u tried the OLAY SKIN POLISHER? damn....its good n affordable at the moment coz they're selling it at the promotional price of $15.90!! its sumthing like a skin buffer kinda thing....shud try it....coz im loving it rite now n planning to buy more b'fore it goes up....even hubby using it!

LOVE AIRWAYS

2007-03-25T01:12:00.000+08:00
i bought another issue of LOVE AIRWAYS magazine today. Previously i bought it once before and found that its quite useful and helpful in an intimate way...in fact, the mag is the reason that i decided to try and bought myself the 'toy'. With a masked face i just shove the mag up my hubbys nose and gave big well read hints about what im suggesting and he actually was delighted at my decision....hehehe. So, we got it and used it and the verdict? Well, lets just say the moment he step into the house from a 24 hour shift, we'll be eyeing one another....with our own self hidden thoughts. I was kinda asking myself if its healthy in a way..and i got my answers today in the mag. For married couples who have been married for a few years and would like to spice up a bit, these toys are the answer...it works~! In my personal opinion, in a way it feels like rediscovering each other again....hubby and i began to open up more. I found out today that men actually gets turn on by women who are sexually confident...be it if u feel thin, fat, flat,big....but if u are confident and able to express urself sexually...it is a turn on it seems. My hubby confirm it for me...hehehe. For women, well, not many will admit to it, but we like it if men are exciting!
I wouldnt advise or sound this things out to newlyweds, coz they would still be in the 'as long as you love ur partner' thingy. I was there once. Then i started to discover myself more, we have feelings of love but we also have 'needs' and to make it all comes down together in a good and great way is by opening up to our partners and be open. After six years of marriage, we were finally able to open up our 'bottled up' feelings and desires.....that 'toy' helps a lot...and there will be more to come after further revelations from one another.... ...

note: what im stating here right now is not a plan for the 'perfect' marriage or relationship...but its just one of the ways to spice up our relationship.....theres no 'a smooth sailing' thing after all, there will be hiccups and blunders, but what i realised that i can do to help along my own relationship is by nurturing what we both have right now, and to face the future hiccups and blunders with a strong heart and mind and most importantly FAITH in the marriage....

http://www.meggpower.com/loveairways/tvdvd.html

INVITATION

2007-03-23T14:40:00.000+08:00
hello u all... juz wanna invite whoeva interested in playing wif paper dolls to join the stardolls n be a member by clicking on the link here... pleaseeeeee.......http://friends.stardoll.com/r/d34c6d4c2a59102aa621 i would get to earn a few points if u guys join tru me....hehehehe.......its fun~! u will get to create ur own me doll, as in ur self in there~.....join lah...dont shy shy...guys also can~!!!!

HOP...HOP...HOP

2007-03-21T20:25:00.000+08:00
IT'S HEREEEEEE..............HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.......THE MOMENT THAT I HEARD FROM HUBBY THAT ITS COMING TODAY I WAS GRINNING LIKE A BLUSHING BRIDE`! HIK~! AND IT ARRIVED AT MY FRONT DOOR BY A COURIER MAN.....AHEM....ACTION DONNOE AJERLAH.........IN MY HUBBY'S NAME MAHH~~........HEHEHEHEHE*EVIL GRIN*....
SO..., HUBBY AT WORK AND WONT BE BACK TILL TOMORROW MORN......HMMMMM.....HE MUST BE ANXIOUS AND WORRIED .......ANYBODY WATCHED THE MOVIE 'THE OH IN OHIO' ??? IF U HAVE THEN I THINK U WILL UNDERSTAND.....KIAKKIAKKIAKKIAK~........DATS ME LAUGHING HYSTERICALLY.....AHEM....WHEN IT CAME.., I CHECKED AND RUSHED DOWN TO THE SHOP TO BUY SOME ENERGIZERS......HEHEHEHE......*GRINS*.....AND CHECKED....JUZ CHECKING LAH.....*WINKX*.....ITS HERE~! ITS HERE`! .............vvvvrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....................................

STICKY RICE

2007-03-21T14:00:00.000+08:00
some of u might have known by now that the amk hub is almost ready....the fairprice xtra is really xtra big in size n quantity, it became my major grocery shopping retail..., the plus point is the snacks stalls jus outside the Xtra...., its a food galore for me `! yipes~! aniwaes, yesterday hubby had the urged to try out the small restaurant situated on the first floor of amk hub, STICKY RICE...from the sound of it i got a feeling its a thai restaurant...and it is. So, after fetching sarah from school, we head on to the restaurant and as we flipped through the menu, i was spoilt for choice....hehehe, all seems nice and delicious you see~.....hubby wanted to try the noodles at first but after my forlorn look at the ample dishes available, he agreed to have white fragrant rice and some dishes with mua~.....heheheheh...
the meal= 2 plates of fragrant rice
a bowl of thai green curry with basil
deep fried tofu with sauce
thai pandan leaf otak otak
coke
homemade ice lemon tea
the price = $29++
the ratings= 4 stars out of 5 ( we concluded that quantity n quality of food matches the price nicely)
comments: not too spicy not too sweet, it settles nicely for us adults n child
sarah was happily slurping up the curry as it is, initially i tot it might be too sweet for my taste but i lurve it~....they are quite generous with the chicken and the spices are juz right. the otak otak was yummy, u can taste the ingredients, there are 2 servings of it and the portion is juz nice, the fried tofu was incredible~!! crispy on the outside and very very soft in the inside, served wif special sauce wic tasted sweet n tangy with peanuts. hubby thought he would be asking for xtra rice cos the portion of rice given looks small but we ended up with leftover rice and i was trying to eat up the leftover dishes ....( better to waste the rice than the dishes rite?) hehehe...

we left the restaurant with a happy but bulging stomach each~.....

A DELIGHTFUL SECRET~

2007-03-20T23:10:00.000+08:00
heheheh.....i jus cudnt stop grinning since this afternoon when i found out that my online purchased is 'processing'.....voila~! its the first time that i made my own purchase online wif hubby's permission of coz~....and support~....
i bought something wic i would never have dreamt of buying before in my whole life....ever, ever! but i did.....i DID!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeee.............in fact if i think about it.., i dont think most woman would think about it at all.., would laugh about it even. Hmmmmm......well, i did it and im damn happy i did~!! hubby giggled every time i mentioned 'it'........wondering what it is? ....wellllllll.......lets say its a toy~.................
i was so worried about purchasing it in the first place cos its paid through atm transfer, and my order was still pending even after i paid, but after my emails to them...they eventually processed it and its coming soon! AKAN DATANG~!

NOTE: parental guidance is advised.....

A NEW BEGINNING FOR MUA~

2007-03-19T23:33:00.000+08:00
ok im back again in the bloggie world which ive left for a while......err....juz need to let off some steam due to personal matters...haha..well, well, well.....hmmmmmm
so what should i blog about today...? ive been thinking and thinking and ive decided to be free in wateva i say or do in this blog coz its gonna be my blog and i dont have to care what peeps might think of me....erm, of coz the gov. is excluded...hahah...no point in getting myself in trouble is there? kiakiakiakiakkiak~!!! <<>
so.....in my life so far , ive been trying to improve my lifestyle in many ways actually...losing weight of coz, be a better mum, be a better woman, be a better person , be a better wife and of coz be a better lover....hehehe. for those who knew me, u might remember dat i did lose 10 kg some time back before i was pregnant and all only to gain it back and so now ive been trying to lose it all again wif the doc's help.....slowly does it~.....sheesh. in becoming a better mum....well, i spend more attention on both my kids ....usual. to be a better woman? hehehe....dat takes a lot of my hubby's pay....hahahaha....make ups..hair dos...clothes...its all about appreciating myself more....i used to neglect myself coz i was paying too much attention on being a mum dat i forgot i needed to be a woman , a friend, a bestfriend, a girlfriend, a lover and a wife to my husband..... guys...their attention span will be elsewhere once there's nothing to catch their attention at home...trust me...(<
anyways....all the changes that im trying to do for myself and my dear ones all is for a reason....to keep my marriage alive. SIMPLE. i used to think thats its just a matter of give and take but then i found out its also about realising that all that you know or think can , not be what it is.....life and love is not simple....in my own opinion; LIFE: walk tru it, make mistakes, learn them, improve, more mistakes....etc: LOVE: a gift that is given not to be kept away in a cupboard, it is to be taken care of and nurtured so it will grow and not wilt......not for us to say thank you when given but for us to reciprocate...
maybe by now for whoever is dat is reading my blog might be wondering what gibberish have i typed here??? ....to tell u the truth , i dont know it myself! im just typing and relating what im thinking inside.....its the beginning of the new me....just letting out my thoughts and feelings....without reservations....i guess its a good start. -end-